Thursday, January 21, 2010

All we need is love

I sat down at my computer today, like I have for the past 3 days, and waited for the flood of thoughts to begin. I sat, and I sat, and I sat. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. So I shut my eyes and just sat and listened to the music playing in the background. It was so peaceful.

I was filled with an overwhelming sense of gratitude. Gratitude for all that I have and for the journey I've been on. I have transformed from an angry, depressed and fearful person into someone joyful, loving and thankful. I'm not completely fearless, but I face my fears today, instead of hiding from them.

How did this happen? How did I turn things around for myself? How can someone go from the depths of a personal Hell to soaring in the sky joyfulness? It took a lot of soul searching and tears. It took a lot of falling down and getting back up again. I always had the falling down part right, but it was the getting back up that I normally struggled with.

I got help from dfferent sources. The Divine, A good therapist, my little sister, my patient Mr. Man, nature, a large number of books and an even larger number of bloggers. There was one person in paticular that helped me the most. That person was me.

I was the one who allowed this transformation to take place. I was the one who told the bully living inside of me to get lost and I am the one who makes sure that bully stays lost. I have learned how to love and protect myself. I have moved from a person who really hated herself to person who embraces who she is and loves her regardless of any mistakes she may have or will make.

I wish that everyone in this world could just love themselves. What a wonderful world that would be. I wish I could help those that struggle with this. I for one know that no one can love themselves till they are ready. I can share my story till I'm blue in the face and if Mr./Ms. Human isn't ready to love themself my words will just get lost. Believe me, many words were lost to me. Just ask my sister. Poor kid. She tried for years to get me to see that I was worthy. No luck.

I am worthy. You are worthy. EVERYONE is worthy. EVERYONE!

I hope that today you all know what it feels like to fully love and accept yourself. And if you're not there yet, I hope that day comes soon. Today I plan to finish my quiet time by sitting and sharing this loving energy to those people in the world who are living in darkness and fear. Living shiny is a gift we all should possess.

Come and live shiny with me.

Just my thoughts.


Anonymous said...

Absolutely beautiful! So much to be celebrated within your words. A transformation by Love:)
I too wish that everyone in the world could look in the mirror and love what is reflected back exactly as he/she is. The best we can do to accomplish that goal is to continue loving and let that overflow from our heart to touch those around us.
One great big of Love to you "Shiny One"!

shiny mamaof6 said...

Joy - Love back to you my wise friend. I hope that you are taking good care of yourself.

Gastenator said...

Beautifully written, Jill. :*)

Jay Schryer said...

To quote Master yoda:

"Size matters not. Judge me by my size do you?"

Your ally is the Force, Jill, and a powerful ally it is. This post is as beautiful as you are.

septembermom said...

Your words always shine for me! Sending much love your way :)

Stark Raving Zen said...

Holy cow! Gone for a few days, and I come back to all these glorious posts! What an excellent treat. Jill, you ARE helping others find their way. With your words, yes, but mostly just by being you. You are pumping out healing energy to the entire world, without so much as saying boo. Your healing requires no action on your part. Just being alive is all it takes. That's the only reason why weight matters. Body / Mind / Spirit... they're all interconnected. And you've got much good to do for this world. I love you very much.

Yo' Baby Sis

shiny mamaof6 said...

Rachel - I'm really glad that you liked it.

Jay - Love Yoda. Love the Force. Love you for being you.

Septembermom - I'm always ready and willing to accept love. Thanks!

Kristy - I really feel drawn toward healing, myself and others. I just feel like this a path I need to go down and see where I end up.