Monday, February 2, 2015

It's Ok

It's ok......

to tell the world what sucks.
to be unhappy with where your life is.
to not love that person you see in the mirror.
to want to be left alone.
to wonder if you have the capacity to love anyone.
to want to change.
to question the existence of anything Divine.
to curse.
to feel alone.
to feel intense feelings of hopelessness.
to forget.
to dread intimacy.
to be crippled with perfectionism.
to tell your loved ones that you're struggling.
to be annoyed by the world around you.
to feel sick and tired.
to focus solely on yourself.

It's ok...

to tell the world what rocks.
to be content with your life.
to fully love that person you see in the mirror.
to want to be surrounded by others.
to love and adore the people in your life.
to want everything to stay just the way it is.
to embrace your faith with all your heart.
to pray.
to feel loved.
to feel intense feelings of hope.
to remember.
to be intimate.
to make mistakes.
to tell your loved ones that you've got this.
to embrace the world around you as perfectly imperfect.
to feel healthy and full of energy.
to focus solely on those around you.

It's all ok.  The good and the bad.  The dark and the light.  Happy and sad.  Life can be wonderful and it can be absolutely messy and chaotic.  It's all ok.  I believe the important thing is, to let the people around you feel their feelings.  Let them share their challenges as well as their triumphs.  Let them share the excitement of their lives and the deep heart-wrenching pain that comes along, too.

It is so easy to acknowledge when the people around us are happy and sharing their successes.  It's also easy to feel uncomfortable when someone is sharing sadness or struggle.  I am in the process of sharing my experience with an intense journey of self-discovery and personal change.  There will be good times and not so good times.  

I am ok, but I will not censor myself.  So if you are uncomfortable or concerned by me sharing this journey, know that I appreciate your care.  I truly do.  I'm not trying to make anyone feel uncomfortable by sharing this thing called life that I'm up against.  And you don't have to read any of it.  It's ok.  I am ok.  I am focusing on all aspects of myself right now because my happiness depends on it.  I can do that.  

It's ok.  

I'm ok.  

Thanks for being a part of my journey.