Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Self Value = Balance

I have been reading a lot about balance lately. Things like the importance of balance in your life, how to notice when you are out of balance, and steps you can take to keep your life balanced. Yet all of this reading has not really helped me in my path to a balanced life. So then I wonder why I can't seem to take all of this awesome advice and balance my life. Is there something wrong with me? Am I incapable of implementing self-improvement steps?

The answer is yes. Something is missing. That thing is self value. I'm not talking about liking myself. I do like myself. I do not give value myself, however. I came across a quote today that opened my eyes to what the missing link was. M. Scott Peck said that "until you value yourself, you won't value your time. Until you value your time, you will do nothing with it." After reading this, I instantly saw that that is what I do. I do nothing with my time. I do nothing with my time because I do not value time. I do not value time because (big collective sigh) I. Do. Not. Value. Me. All the time that I waste doing nothing has got to be one of the biggest reasons that my life is unbalanced.

When I say that I am doing nothing, I mean in all aspects of my life. Not just the day to day tasks that I should be doing. I mean the inner work also. I am doing nothing physically, emotionally or spiritually. Some people call this laziness, some people call it depression. I am neither. Well, ok, I do believe that I have become spiritually lazy to an extent. The only thing I can think of to call it is valueless. I am without value to myself. I feel I am very valuable to my family, but not so much to me. No wonder my life is out of whack.

This realization is huge. I have been looking for outward things to help draw me into balance. What I should be doing is looking inward for what I value about me. I have received a message today. A very important message. A message so simple, yet not so easy to implement when you have never really given yourself value. I am feeling a lot of peace. My spirit knows that the key to balance and happiness lies within. Sometimes it takes my mind awhile to catch up with my spirit/heart.

Not many people actually read my blog, but I pose this question to anyone who may happen to find it. What do you value about yourself?

I'm going to ponder this one.

Just my thoughts.


inkywasfat said...

Your question is too hard. I'm leaving it blank.

sdsweetland said...

This is a really good question! I'm going to have to think on it for awhile.

Stark Raving Zen said...

Great entry. Seriously great.

Nina P. said...

I LOVE this post! Your so right about self value. I go away and think about this… I just figured I’m a procrastinator… but you’ve got me re-thinking the why behind it…As for your question... I had to think about it…. but….I value my spirit, my good heart if you will.... I don't always tend to it (balance) but I do value it... I love your path to growth and healing. Keep writing and keep sharing... Love and Light, Nina P.