Wednesday, February 10, 2010

The Search

The Search

She was searching.  Searching for something that was always out of her reach.  All she wanted was to be good enough.  All she wanted was to be beautiful.  All she wanted was to be loved.  She was searching.

She looked to others to validate that she was good enough.  She looked to others to see her beauty.  She looked to others to give her love.  Yet her search continued on for what seemed to be a lifetime.

Then she met a wise, old woman, who told her where she could find all that she was looking for.  This wise woman told her to go to a mirror and stand in front of it with her eyes closed.  There she would find what she was so desperately searching for.

She walked away from the wise woman feeling disappointment.  How could she possibly find these things in a mirror with her eyes closed?  That's when she heard the voice.  It said one word. "Trust."

So she did as she was told.  She stood before the mirror and closed her eyes.  Nothing.  Where was the answer? The voice said, "Trust."

She stood there for many minutes.  Still nothing.  This isn't working.  "Trust."

Many more minutes followed.  Just as she was ready to give up and curse the wise woman, she saw a face.  It was her face.  Then she saw a whole person.  The person looked like her, but she was beautiful and Divine.

She asked, "Who are you?"

The voice retuned and said, "I am you."

"Can you help me find all that I am searching for?"

"I can."

"Please, share your wisdom with me!"

This Most Divine person that was her, told her that there was only one who could end her search.  Only one that could make her feel good enough, and beautiful and loved.

"Who? Who is it!!" she pleaded.

The voice said, "Open your eyes."

"I can't.  What if its just me looking back?"


So she opened her eyes.  She opened her eyes and she saw herself.  And she was good enough and she was beautiful and she was loved.

I hope that you can open your eyes, so that you can be good enough and beautiful and loved.  Trust the Divine you.

Just my thoughts.


Zeenat said...

What a beautiful post! Brought tears to my eyes !
Finding me has been the hardest thing i have had to do....but since the find...I am So Joyful...:)
Thank you for sharing your wonderful thoughts :)
Much Love,

Jay said...

This is really beautiful, Jill. Really, really beautiful.

inkywasfat said...

I'm old enough now to know that if anyone thinks I'm not good enough, Too Bad!!

Nice post.

~The M.F.P. said...

Thank you for this. It is so beautiful and I too am in tears.

Angela Sweetland Bass said...

That was very beautiful. Tears in my eyes too.

jchristin said...

Most beautiful. And like everyone else I have tears. Of joy. Because you have grown so much recently and I love to watch you blossom. Shine on!!!

shiny mamaof6 said...

Z - It really is a joyful feeling to discover what is inside. Glad we share that feeling.

Jay - I'm really happy that you liked it.

Stacey - Too bad is right.

Kimberly - Thank you for sharing your thoughts here.

Angela - Now we are even. :)

Joy - I'm loving watching you blossom as well. Shine on, indeed!!

Meagneato said...

Really looking into the mirror is so incredibly hard...terrifying, in fact.
This was beautifully written. Thank you. :)

Robin Bradley Hansel PT, CPI said...

Jill, so truly wonderful....Love, Robin

Jan said...

Jill, I love this "exercise" and what risks you might have had to take to stop searching and see yourself as the divine beauty you are. My heart is so happy reading this...You have such a beautiful heart and soul....

Nina P. said...

Wow, what a wonderful post and just what I needed to hear. After the new year when old becomes new. i forget sometimes to look into my soul and see.... i can see others easily.. yet my own light is hard sometimes.. I love your post and will actually try this... Thank you sear soul. Thank you. Blessings to you and yours. Love and Light, Nina P

mermaid said...

This is more revealing than you know. Each day you see another part of you, a part that is full of beauty, love, and joy. The more you trust this, trust her, the more she will reveal to you over time.

Jill, you are beautiful, and I am so deeply ecstatic that you are seeing this, too!

jonathan said...

What a great post. To find ones self is to truly look within.

shiny mamaof6 said...

Meagan - I have found that the things that frighten me the most are usually the things that I need to focus on. Thanks for reading.

Robin - Thank you for the show of support. It means so much.

Jan - It is good to know that I don't need to search anymore. I wish that I could pass this freedom on to all the people who don't think they are enough.

Nina - I hope you are able to look and see your beautiful soul. Only a truly beautiful soul can heal with words the way you do. Thank you.

Mermaid - Thank you for your kind words. There was a time when I had no idea who I was or if I was even worth knowing. Today, I can say that I like what I'm seeing and I can accept that others can see me also. Thank you for your support.

Jonathan - Thank you for sharing your thoughts here. I truely appreciate it.

Laura Hegfield said...

This is a beautiful post Jill, my favorite part is the love you sent out toward these beings whose lights are dimmed by fear and all the baggage that comes with it. May they find freedom from their fear cocoons and shine their own loving lights boldly, brightly, compassionately as you have done in their honor here.

shiny mamaof6 said...

Thank you, Laura, for your thoughts here. I appreciate you leaving a comment. There are times when I wish I could do more for people stuck in their cocoons. For now, sending out Love & Light is all I can do.