tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5686853280048230813.post5697533929545764394..comments2023-08-21T02:21:04.843-05:00Comments on Choosing To Begin: BelieveJillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08700460888249251584noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5686853280048230813.post-41618171044736947052014-12-02T20:43:56.823-06:002014-12-02T20:43:56.823-06:00Thank you, Tracy. Finding a dream is something tha...Thank you, Tracy. Finding a dream is something that I hope for. Jillhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08700460888249251584noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5686853280048230813.post-65407328027934364222014-12-02T15:19:19.897-06:002014-12-02T15:19:19.897-06:00Sometimes I think of the life I would like to be l...Sometimes I think of the life I would like to be living - as a potter or a writer - as a woman with a "room of (her) own" to learn in, read in - strangely, quilt in - things I have basically - with the exception of reading - never done. I look at the life I am leading and realize how far it is from that dream and don't feel the ability to get there because I have ended up in a place in life... - I wouldn't trade in my children for that life dream up there or better - but they depend on me and I want them to have a childhood they can look back on with fondness - memories which bring them comfort - so I have to work - work in a way that will bring in secure money - and that is what I chose, but sometimes it's so hard to get through the days knowing that those dreams - no matter what anybody tells me - are not going to come true - to try to let them go and find happiness anyway - find happiness outside of that dream. It's hard sometimes. It's hard to believe that I will find a time and space for myself again - hard to realize I had so much time as a single woman without anyone depending on me and that I didn't get there to that dream at THAT time. We just have to keep making it through every day as well as we can, Jill. I know it doesn't bring a lot of comfort, but we can believe that we are really loved and that if we were gone we would be deeply missed. I believe we can get through. I believe you can get through this. The love is there. Wrap up the hope in it and store it good. Hang on to it - everything will come back again.Tracynoreply@blogger.com